Wow-summer is FLYING by! Almost 1/2 over and still so much We want to do! Izzy couldn’t make herself go to summer camp, so we cancelled the 4 weeks we’d scheduled for that. And she’s spending her days sleeping, playing in her phone, taking care of her new kitten and making slime. Gah-there’s slime in varying states of preparation everywhere!

Tomorrow we go to meet a Psychiatrist. I’m gonna ask for meds that fix: ADHD, Anxiety, Autism and Trichotillomania. She should be able to fix us right up…ha! Only in my dreams!

She’s still pulling hair. From all over her body. She isn’t pulling as often, but if she’s stressed it’s her first line of defense. I anticipate more pulling as school gets closer. She asked me yesterday if there’s a cure for trich. Believe me, if there was, I’d have already scaled the highest mountain or walked across fire to get it for you, kid. It opened us up for a good conversation though. She said she isn’t sad that she pulls and she doesn’t miss her hair. She likes being bald and wearing wigs because it’s “so much easier” than her real hair was. Then she asked me if I was sad she pulls….yeah, I’m saddened by that, but it makes me less sad knowing Iz seems ok with it (right now anyway).

I see big changes in Izzy, even since school ended 4 weeks ago. She’s been doing OT/speech at an office who specialize in sensory and autism kiddos. She’s opening up to them, and she’s really enjoying it. She isn’t nearly as hostile. She is more willing to listen and compromise than she’s ever been in her life. She realizes quickly when she’s over reacted and she will sincerely apologize when she has.

She has also found her birth sister. And in Abi, she has found a friend and confidant. Tonight they FaceTimed for a long time. I hear Izzy laughing and being her true self with Abi. I see a friendship blooming. Maybe they will be better friends because they don’t live together than they would be if they did. We are meeting them for dinner and to hang out on Friday evening and I know Izzy is really looking forward to it. I heard them talking about having a sleepover and I heard Izzy tell Abi that it would have to be here because her anxiety would “flip it’s lid” if she tried to sleep over at someone else’s house. I love that this relationship is beginning. Izzy has asked Abi some hard questions, and Abi has given Izzy some insight on her birth dad. If I’m 100% honest it makes me a little anxious-I don’t want Izzy to wish she wasn’t adopted. But I’m choosing to look at it as her getting the best of both worlds.